What If Series: 將一切可能性實現,我們都是獨一無二的
社會存在太多束縛和規條,在無形中局限了我們的想像。生活在別人的目光底下,我們妥協、我們順從,卻漸漸模糊了原來的模樣。把目光聚焦於自己身上,拾回自己的輪廓,只有我們能決定自己的模樣。流動的性別、無窮的想像,女生把頭髮剃掉,男生化一臉精緻妝容又有何不可?他們將一切可能性實現,告訴我們每一個人都擁有獨一無二的美麗。
勇於想像,就能做到。
EP 02: Dawny
如果人生是一堆鉛筆字,記憶能被輕易擦掉;活著,是否成了瞎忙一場?她或許忙,但絕不瞎。忙著對世界好奇,忙著觀察周遭,許多你不理解不明白的事,她也清清楚楚。她替自己起名Usepencil──用鉛筆,一個可輕易被擦掉的自己,渾身是行與坐不留姓名的瀟灑。
WHAT IF
LIFE IS WRITTEN BY PENCIL
被家人忽略的Dawny ,其實也有類似甚至更糟的症狀。如此,沒有人發現她不善人際,只有人發覺這個女生可以欺凌。負面情緒日積月累,至崩潰至失憶,就連家人也忘掉。不過,她卻覺得沒有不好,忘掉一切,反而發現忘掉他人閒言,會活得更加舒服。
WHAT IF
OBSERVATION IS A PROFESSION
不善交際的Dawny,總是飽受朋儕傷害, 於是漸漸徑自走到一角,只看不說,自此養成觀察的習慣。既然Dawny自稱專業觀察者,那就不如談談最深刻的觀察。她淡淡然道:「有許多人都不是太清楚自己,他們或對自己有著一定程度的想法和期望,心目中有一個想達到的模樣;但最後會發現,自己在人生每一個階段都有可能會改變,然後不知所措。」
所有事物,只要你懂得欣賞它的美感、模式,你也可以與之完勝 甚或將之打敗。
WHAT IF
WE DON’T NEED ANYTHING TO PROVE OURSELVES
對於是Dawny來說,與生俱來的這個身體,已是靈活自主的空間去表達自己。剃光頭也好,不戴胸罩也罷,只要超脫社會期望,便可我行我素,決定自己的身形體態。昨天她想留一把長髮,今日她將頭髮全剃掉,想法或靜止或流動,有何不可。說到底,我們從不需要任何東西,特地去證明自己。
我不再需要任何東西,去代表自己的性別。
WHAT IF
TATTOO IS A WAY TO QUESTION LIFE
從16歲,Dawny就把對世界的好奇,對周遭的醒覺,記錄在皮膚上。如果感到好奇,就紋上一隻兔子,讓它領自己到仙境樹洞。如果擦掉記憶,就索性以墨水把經歷烙在鎖骨旁。如果時間是線向,如果人生只能向前,無法向後;就把永遠,刺到背上的皮膚去,填到音符的頻率去。
How long is forever?
Original song by usepencil@Manjushka
First time we met it’s something I won’t forget
Looking back those days it seems young naive and free
Time is linear, it goes by and becomes the past
Seconds becomes yesterday
Wondering if we will still see each other
Seem that we live for everyone else
Eternity is the second we see
The smile on our faces
There is always someone special in life
Storing in your heart forevermore
Close and apart, does it matter to you
Thinking of it draws all the blood from me
How long is forever? It’s relativity
Everyone leaves but leave pieces of glass in you
Dream on, no one will remember your faces
In your death bed only needles besides you
Wondering if we will still see each other
It is better to forget than to forgive
Selfish people live in our own cubicles
We only choose the people that makes you feel good
No one likes to stay with a moping friend
It is so easy to fall in love
Close and apart, does it matter to you
You can always find a way to pass
Erase, Rewind
TEXT: YANNI W/HOKK FABRICA
PHOTOGPRAPHY: LILI N/ HOKK FABRICA
VIDEOGRAPHY: DICK, SONIA / HOKK FABRICA
VIDEO EDITING: XUEER/ HOKK FABRICA
What If Series EP1: Erin Tse